The Soulful Atom

Reflecting over life through weird, crazy, ever changing, euphoric, absurd, confused and at times impartial lenses -a journey of curiosity and questions with my two alter egos.. as I try to fall out of the stagnation of instability.. or the desperate attempt to remain..

Bitterness is like pus.
You need to get it out, throw it up completely, till nothing remains inside.
Only then the wound can begin to heal.
If the bitterness is bottled up inside, all it will do is spread and eat you up from within.. Till you become and empty shell of bitterness..
If you want happiness to come, free up the space and let the bitterness out..
Let people know what you feel.

Pus is not a nice thing to cajole. Remove it by expressing and burn it by apologising, understanding and forgiving. :)

Step one.

Can we resume after a pause?

You and me are not two parts which if added equal to something.
You and me are the equation. :)
And hence we balance.

You and yourself = Me and myself :P

..from my midnight dreams. May or may not make sense.. :)


Avgha asmanta ubha samor,
chimba bhijun jeev ola,
tujhya premachya lakh lakhtya tejat nhala..

Sawala hota Ram, to Sitecha..
An sawala hota Krushna, to Radhecha..
Tu sawala nahis mhanun kay..
Sawalach ahe ranga majhya premacha..

Pahate vaat.. Ti sandhyakaal phulanchi..
Pahate vaat.. Ti sarr unhachi..
Pahate vaat.. Ti ratra udyachi..
An pahate vaat.. Mi tujhya vatechi..

Na kalat ase vatale,
Na kalat tu hath sodale,
Na kalat vaat sarli ani ti ratra hi..
Na kalat haluch pani gala la sparshun gele,
na kalat tujha hasu dolya pudhe jhalakale..
Na kalat vaat sarli ani ti vel hi..
Na kalat shwas ata ha lapandav khelato,
Na kalatach ata punha tujha swas majhyat guntato..
Punha? nahi, ha tar tujhach hota, udhar majhya uri..
Na kalat mala, tujhi vaat parat ithe, majhya dishe sathi..

(Updated on the blog 8/12/2018)

A violet chill runs down my spine
A green smile flowers on my lips, as you offer a pink glow for my cheeks
My eyes watch you with sparkling golden desire
As blue words spills forth, and you make my heart pound with dark, black love cause nothing is deeper..

Forget the skies or coming undone
Forget the meals or the other rides
Forget the tender warm passion and the cold hearted assault
Forget you body and forget mine too if you will
But can you forget yourself and further still, can you detach yourself?

Your love is my poison and your pain is the dagger
Let it slash through my soul now, i’m dead either way

A snatched smile, a caged love, a writhing desire, a strong truth and then a free soul

On a bed of roses, under a sky filled with stars
Decorated on my heart with the eyes sprinkling the eternal
Here is my sacrifice for you
For it is easy when you know deep down, where you belong..
For it is easier when you accept..
So here i walk away, right into your heart- just the way you want
For it is easiest when you can read and understand the unsaid unspoken truths
Truth begins where the world proclaimed lies fall to ashes, for here is where you belong