The Soulful Atom

Ever wondered about the various feelings which go hand in hand?
Like Hatred and anger..
Curiosity and fear..
Love and pain..
Protectiveness and ferocity..
Desire and recklessness..
So many combinations.. All go well with each other and mostly always arise hand in hand..
A couple that keeps visiting me frequently is hope and impatience..
A hope that things will get better and the impatience for them to get right sooner!

Sometimes i wonder if it is unnatural.. But then who is to decide what is natural?
Isn't natural something that sprouts from within with no conscious efforts to make it happen that way? So when something happens which is does not normally happen, we call it unnatural..
Why so? We can call it un-normal maybe.. But why unnatural? I feel most of the things which are not consciously induced or done are perfectly natural..

So this extreme hope which doesn't seem to leave me alone for long.. And the impatience that accompanies it, drives me crazy at times.. Because they just apear out of nowhere and demand to be accommodated and served!! But i'm left disturbed by the fact that i do not have the means to do so.. I do not know what kind of behavior is expected by them!!

There must be many such un-normal combinations which keep sprouting within us which maybe we tend to call confusion. Then we tend to get scared of them and break them apart and strengthen one of them.. But this choosing part leaves us tired and breaks us too.. So why call it unnatural when it is not? Why get scared of it if its new? Why not just try to understand and live it? :)

Well im living this combination since a long time.. And its doesn't seem too bad.. Its exciting if nothing else... And helps me in the quest of finding what it really is, and why i feel it.. :)