The Soulful Atom

Your fragrance lingers..
Try as i might to flee, it deepens..
Deep in my skin, like nails dig in out of fear..
Eyes on the brim of overflowing..
Always overflowing..
I stop breathing.. stop smelling..
It lingers within..
I try to tear it out.. but get my hands on only blood and guts..
Where does the smell lurk?
Hiding in the darkness of my own soul mocking me..
Chopping away at my mind...
Your presence.. Arrogantly absent..
Stark naked in the darkness of my soul..
Absent.. like your breath..
Sharp tingling like the dark vile liquid cutting through my lips..
A solid vacuum that i can eat and lick..
As i tear at the curtains..
And the soil around.. That mock my belief..
A distant memory calls me back..
Back to it in the past future..
Where you were alive..
When bridges were to be crossed, where bridges lived too..
A sparkle, a turn, a whiff and a glimpse of you..
Maybe during a distant stitch on the fabric of time..
Dazed as i walk into the dawn..
Abandoned by you for me to chew on..
A fragrant vacuum to light my steps..
Towards your dawn....