The Soulful Atom

I write this as i sit on a terrace with couple of friends who have gone to attend their separate calls right now. There is chatter all around, music and sounds of desperate traffic floating up.. there was a reason for this time out drinking tonight.. it stands as below It feels so weird. As if a distant lifetime, not even the immediate previous one. Its not been a very long time yet its ready fading away.. was it even a bond? Or just something flimsy that hook winked me into believing it was solid? Looks like the latter.. there are some memories but only just.. the tag stays of course not that it bothers me. Maybe what bothers more is that there wasnt a lot of pain of losing the person.. that i invested myself in an image an idea instead of the actual person.. that i fooled myself into believing it was love and something that would last a lifetime atleast let alone 9.. but then there it was done.. n now dusted.. the remaining memories would fade away too probably... But i hope i will have something left in my vault cause i did believe in it when it was alive n thriving.. these will be the only memories i would fool myself in believing i think.. after all it was the first time..