The Soulful Atom

For the GSD

You came along one fine day,
and then other days turned gray..

You disappeared and re-surfaced as you pleased.

Your presence bloomed flowers in my heart,
And your absence was scented by their dried souvenirs..

You crashed, you slashed and crushed every single drop of happiness and i thought my eyes eventually would go dry..

But here you retreated and my eyes were fresh with love and hurt both the same..

Why did you do that to me? Didn't you know how it felt?
And now you come back in all your glory when I've managed to let go or so i think..
You come back and you bring back all your charm, you expect me to follow you as blindly as i did before..

So that you can vanish again as you always did..
Right before my questioning eyes, who pleaded for an answer- when shall i see you again?
Would i ever see you again?

And then you did go away forever, or so i thought..
I willed myself to believe it, against all my instincts..
I believed you when you said you are going..
And I believed my love for you too..

But you came back..
At a time when I had gone ahead,
you stood there, knowing i would come,
But I didn't not. I will not.
The uncertainty went away with you and I walked out on instability of your existence in my life..

Thank you for letting me go.. Though I held on for long..
Thank you for making me realise that I gotta be strong..
Thank you for all the hurt, n making me realise my belief in love was all fake..
Thank you for all that you gave me, and all that you did not!

-Super Bitch