The Soulful Atom

Can't write! There's this plain canvas and i've got all the colors i need and yet i just can't write.. Its become a pattern and possibly there is nothing new to write.. Its just the same things happening all the time.. There is nothing different.. In one of the most important aspect of my life, its just stuck in a limbo and there's nothing new to say or write.. its just the same things.. This rhythm needs to break.. This situation needs to change.. But what do you do when its not in your hands!? People say if its not in your hands worrying is not going to help. But what do you do when every waking moment thats all you can think of? You go through a lot of trouble to do something nice for yourself to make yourself happy, but that changes nothing, you come back at the end of the day and there is it to haunt you! Everything else that you do to make yourself happy is fake, cause you are not happy within naturally.. I've had enough of this and need out, but i need out in only one way, which is not in my hands.. So what do i do? I choose to remain rooted in this shit, and hope pray to god that some one will notice and change. Make the change which is in their hands alone. And i hope to god that what i've held on for so long doesn't go down the drain or its going to be all in vain.. i hope they realize this too.. Cause then all that everyone has gone through is really in vain.. And its so funny cause its in the hands of only that one person.. Just hope and pray its soon.. cause its been too late already.. Just wish they notice and ACT!