The Soulful Atom

Adieu is a farewell.. Its not au revior which means see you later. Au revoir is usually in our hands, in the hands of the person saying it and to whom it is being said. Adieu is in the hands of god. When the person saying it does not know if or when he/she will see the other person again. Usually its a good bye.. Till such a time that god sees fit, if at all.
So here is an adieu.. From The Unstable Atom to everyone. Her readers from the virtual world. Its a sorrow that i've to say good bye.
I will leave you with reasons though, unlike some of us who just go away leaving things unsaid, and lives unlived.
The Atom changed a lot in the past two years just like i did. The inspiration for most of the writing has been love- The pain and joy from love, also some things which i observed around.. Has generally been about my perspective of the world.
However, life now seems to be stuck in a limbo and there is nothing but frustration abound within. I'm at a place where even if i want to change the way i feel i can't and i don't quite believe in fooling myself or manipulating my feelings! So, nothing i do helps and so doesn't make any sense to write any more, since there is nothing coming out of this state of mind. The Atom has been by my side whenever i've needed a friend, someone to vent feelings out to when there was no human around to do so. Its been my voice when there was no other way to communicate. The atom is very dear and sacred to me, and so i don't want to spoil her sanctity any more than i already have in the past few days/months where i've done her no justice. I've been more unstable than ever in my decisions and thoughts. And even if the atom is unstable, it is not to such a level where she starts to wonder who she is. She was never at a place where she felt her words cannot convey anything or are just causing more and more trouble than solving any, where her words started losing their importance or appeal and only drove people away! The Atom is a reflection of my soul only a little better, and so i'm giving her the respect she deserves.
So an adieu is in order. I will not be writing anywhere else, not online, and not in any person offline journal either. Atleast not till the time i start feeling one with myself again.
If you can please pray that the atom can find her solace again in instability or in stability.
Thanks a ton for being such awesome readers and for considering my words worth of your attention!
CP and BP shall ofcourse continue the journey with me..
It was great being here.. Lets see what god has in store.. Even if many times we painfully want it to be in our hands- our pain and our joy, its all after all in god's hands.. So far i've always done things the way i wanted, atleast i like to believe so. So, its his turn now! A Dieu!

Copying a teacher, whom i lost out of a very terrible misunderstanding:
Ab ke hum bichde to shaayad kabhi khwaabon mein mile jis tarah sookhe huye phool kitaabon mein mile...