The Soulful Atom

How is it that you have something and yet you don't?
Is it like the cash you keep at the bank?
Perhaps..
But at least there you know you can have it any time you want..
You keep it there for safety..
But now its as if the bank itself is the monster, eating up what you gave it for safe-keeping..
Or maybe you never did!
The only place it would ever be safe is with you..
So how is it that you have something and yet you don't?
Then do you really have it?
Or are you just hiding behind a known illusion too scared to acknowledge and accept the truth- that you don't have it?
But how could it be that you don't have it?
Maybe you have it but its not yours..
But you know it is yours, so perhaps you don't have it and its yours?
How does this work?
And however it does, how do you make yourself work with it?
Specially when this is not something you want!
When you want it to be yours and to have it with you all the time!