The Soulful Atom

You GOT to read this!! https://rutugole.wordpress.com/2015/03/12/my-black-dog-me/

This post would be my perspective/opinion for the above blog.

There still are people who don't understand that depression is as natural as any other state a living being can be in! Like anger or happiness or love! Its a state, a feeling. Whats there to not accept in it? Duhh.. Its like you are trying to pick and choose from a whole gamut of "features" you are born with! You can't pick and choose its all there inside you. Some may experience it some may not, for some it might just be a dull thud somewhere deep inside.Ways of dealing with it maybe different, but why not accept it and deal with it? Why act as if nothing of this sort exists?
For me depression has been there for a while. I always knew it. I never sought professional help since I know that the answers and solutions lie inside me. I even know what I need to do, but maybe I'm just being lazy. Maybe i even like feel certain things. I've said to some people that crying is as much a part of life as is laughing. Denial is a waste of time. Though i do accept that denial exists, I've never been in it. I may choose to hope positively that somethings will change, but denial it is not! I think the good thing about my depression is knowing exactly what it is, where it stems from and what needs to be done.
There are phases where I love to overcome it and be triumphant and then there are phases when i voluntarily go back. People don't seem to understand this and insist i take help! They are right too, since they care for me they can't see me in the hell that i put myself through. But i feel i need it. It is almost like a conscious unconscious choice for me! LOL! I have tried sharing this with people but they seem to be on a different plane where life needs to be all smiling and happy all the time. There are times when i am at a loss about what i can do to get out of this phase of this state. But then i come around and get bored. The solution inside me gets out on its own then! :) :D I'm already feeling excited about this thing. Yes talking does help. I mostly talk to myself from all angles. I find it too taxing to talk to someone new about all this cause there is too much and i might miss telling some small detail which is very important! So I become my own therapist.. I feel sorry for the people around me who have to bear the consequences of my antics and the expectations I put on them when I'm in one of my states! But thats life isn't it, it can't be all rosy for all of you either ;) :P :D
Think about it, talk about it, and find your own way of dealing with it. Be it therapy medication anything. The important thing is knowing yourself! What you show to the world or what people think of you doesn't matter as long as you know yourself and what your actions mean, to you and whoever else you want.
Depression exists and its not big deal. Just understand it and then decide where you want to be with it! :)
This indeed is a coming out for me.. :) Thanks R for writing that post! :)